How I Used Reiki to Heal Myself from Trauma, Addiction, and Emotional Pain
🌿 How I used Reiki to rebuild my mind, body, and spirit
When I first heard the word “Reiki,” I thought it sounded like some New Age buzzword.
I was a recovering addict with scars on my body, grief in my heart, and no interest in being “spiritual.”
But when nothing else worked — not medication, not counseling, not even prayer — I got quiet.
And in that silence, something opened.
Something ancient.
Something subtle but powerful.
And it led me to Reiki.
🧠 What Is Reiki (For People Who’ve Been Through Real Shit)?
Reiki isn’t magic.
It’s not religion.
It’s not a fix — it’s a flow.
It’s the gentle practice of channeling energy through the body to bring balance, peace, and healing. It’s subtle but real.
It’s calm but deep.
And for me — it was transformational.
💥 How Trauma Blocks Energy (And Why Reiki Helped Me)
Trauma doesn’t just live in your memories — it lives in your body.
I carried pain in my chest for years. Rage in my gut. Shame in my throat.
All that energy, stuck. Frozen.
And if you’ve ever lived through abuse, addiction, or toxic relationships, you probably know the feeling:
You clench your jaw in silence
You hold your breath around certain people
You tighten your stomach when you expect pain
Reiki helped me finally release that.
Not just mentally — physically.
I started giving myself Reiki every day:
15 minutes of quiet
Hands on heart, head, solar plexus
Breathing in light
Breathing out judgment
Asking the parts of me I used to hate: “What do you need?”
✋ What It Looked Like (My Actual Self-Healing Practice)
Here’s how I did it — and still do:
1. Set the space
I sit alone, in silence. No phone. No distractions. Just a candle or soft light.
2. Place my hands
I follow my intuition. One day my hands go to my heart. Another day, my root chakra. Some days, I just cover my face and cry.
3. Call in the energy
I say silently or aloud:
“I call in the Reiki energy. I ask it to flow through me, to the parts of me that need it the most — known or unknown.”
4. Breathe
In through the nose. Out through the mouth. Over and over. Letting the tension go.
5. Feel
Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I shake. Sometimes I get goosebumps. And sometimes… I feel nothing but peace. And that’s everything.
🛠️ What Reiki Helped Me Heal
✅ Grief from everything I lost while I was using
✅ Shame from the things I did to survive
✅ Abuse I received — and inflicted
✅ Triggers that used to control me
✅ Emotional flashbacks that used to hijack my day
✅ Self-hatred that I didn’t even know was still hiding in me
🧬 Why Reiki Is Different Than Just “Thinking Positive”
You can’t outthink trauma.
You can’t journal your way out of nervous system dysregulation.
Reiki gave me a way to access healing on the level beneath words — where the real pain lived.
It’s not about pretending.
It’s not about suppressing.
It’s about letting the energy move through you.
Sometimes healing isn’t loud.
Sometimes it’s just sitting still long enough to listen.
🌱 Final Thoughts: Yes, You Can Heal Yourself Too
I’m not special.
I’m not more “in tune” than you are.
I just stopped running long enough to try something different.
And Reiki?
It changed my life.
It helped me rebuild a relationship with my own body.
It helped me hold space for the parts of me I used to numb.
It helped me understand what real peace feels like — not a high, not a distraction, but a real, grounded return to self.
If you’ve survived trauma…
If you’re trying to recover from addiction…
If you’re looking for something deeper than talk therapy…
Try Reiki.
Let it in.
Let you in.
Your healing doesn’t have to come from outside you.
Sometimes, the medicine is already in your hands.